After much anticipation, the appointment came and went with no real answers. I was praying that I would be able to lose the catheter after today and that we would know why my bladder was malfunctioning and am very distraught that none of that occurred. . .
The appointment began with a brief description of what happened and how my symptoms manifested themselves. He then ordered a sonogram of my kidneys and bladder which revealed that they are not emptying properly. He returned to the exam room with this information and a simple plan of action --->On Monday morning, I will remove the catheter and return to his office by 3pm. I will also begin taking a smooth muscle relaxer x3/day. . .
I am frustrated beyond belief. Both my husband and I had hoped that today would bring answers. Now that we know there will be no answers for at least another 72 hours is heartbreaking. I am honestly not sure how much longer I can walk through the unknown. Yes, I can put on a smile and act like all is well, but inside I am hurting. Inside I am exhausted. Inside I am not sure just how much I have left. . .
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ReplyDeleteOn this day of Mary's Annunciation...I just pray for your continued strength and patience in this time of question and unknown...I always see folks lining up in Purgatory as I size up suffering...I will lift you up Mary Pauline...let all of us who love you do this...you try to 'coast' until Monday...and I will pray for miracle of healing. The Archangel Raphael (I may be repreating myself) is patron of healing...so I am keeping his company today and emerald green is associated with him: Irish; oxygen; life; spring; renewal; rebirth.... AND Come Holy Spirit and pour yourself upon this precious godly woman and her wonderful family. Keep her safe and let her feel the power of Your presence as she travels to Monday. love you, a.Mo
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