The Future

I have been asked about adoption many times, by many people, so I thought that I would write about it. Although no one knows for sure what the future holds, there are goals and dreams that we all have. Here are mine. . .

I always envisioned being the crazy home birthing woman. When Robert came via an emergency c-section, I knew that the home birth part would have to be re-considered. We were very lucky to be able to have a private transition and spend those precious first hours together as a new family. 23 months later, when Hannah came via another emergency c-section for another placental abruption that we were told would never happen, I knew that most likely c-sections would be the way I would deliver. Also with Hannah, she had to go to the NICU for a few hours because of the amount of blood she ingested during the abruption. She was 7 hours old when I was finally able to hold her. Fast forward another 23 months to Wesley's early and once again emergent arrival where I knew that my chances of becoming pregnant again and carrying safely to term for both baby and myself were not good. He was 36 hours old before I was even able to lay eyes on him. . .

Slowly, God has prepared me for this day. Each pregnancy and delivery, came with new challenges that I now see are part of His plan for me and my family. He has slowly prepared my heart and mind for the day when I would no longer be able to carry a child within. The day when I would no longer hold my newborn baby immediately after their arrival. The day when I could look back and say thank you for the struggles that you laid out for me, for us. . .

When Robert and I first married, nearly 8 years ago, we spoke openly about children and adoption. It was and still is something that we are open to. Something that we are waiting to feel our hearts pulled in that direction. Right now, we do not feel pulled in that direction, but that can certainly change at any moment. We know that there are so many children that need a good, loving home. One that we we can provide them with.

God has already placed many families in our lives who have already traveled this route and can guide us. Good friends (who also happened to 'introduce' Robert and I) have traveled the private adoption path and are now beginning the foster route. And there are so many others. God has certainly prepared us!

So, the answer is, YES. This is something that we are considering when the time is right. And we both feel strongly that if it is meant to be, that it will happen.