3 Years Later

I happened to look at things tonight and realized I have not updated since March 3, 2012 - the 1yr mark of the surgery...

Since then, a lot has happened...
(1) I am more at peace with my body. Knowing I will never have another baby stinks, but it is not the end of the world. My older sister just gave birth to their first 2.5mths ago. I was sad because I always wanted to be pregnant with my sisters (my plan, NOT His), but that was it. The rest was pure joy!
(2) The pain is still present. I have been to doctors, had nerve blocks, tried nerve meds, etc, all to no avail. Recently, I visited with many specialists and sub-specialists at Mayo Clinic here in Jacksonville. All agreed that my pain is a direct result of the hernia repair and some trauma during the  hysterectomy.
(3) I have been able to help many other young people who needed to go through this. With that, I have made many friends and felt like I was able to help and support them from a young persons point of view.
(4) I never realized that your uterus supports your lower internal organs. Without it, you can develop different 'celes.' I have a grade 2 cystocele and a grade 3 rectocele. These can be corrected through surgery, but until I can't take it anymore, I will make the most of it and live with it!
(5) My husband and kiddos are incredible. There have been hard times over these past 3 years, but we have always been there for me. I could not ask for anything better!

This is about it. Issues still remain, but I am constantly reminded it is His plan and not mine!